im here

i rarely write in here anymore.
lack of inspiration.
hopefully that will change.
i need to be more honest, with myself.
ill give it another shot.
just dont judge me.

finished a journal.
i think its pretty creepy if i do say so myself!












www.murderoushoney.etsy.com

possibly the best christmas gift ever.

thanksgiving was short and sweet.
though i keep thinking that this "us" thing might be a bad idea.

this is how i look and how i feel.

soon

i can feel the cold slipping its fingers down my throat.
its a little unnerving.
i have a feeling this winter is going to be more desolate than the last.

my feets hurt.

definitly moving to nyc someday.
it was more than amazing.


i swear to god if he hurts her i will slit his throat.


and get away with it.

on a side note:
like i didnt know it was going to happen.
im not going to let this get to me.
why should i? i barely knew him.






but yet i cant stop thinking about it.
fuck me.

my eye looks like outerspace.

i hate that weird waiting wondering feeling i get.
like should i be doing something or just pretend like i dont care.
i have no idea.
i wish someone would surprise me, show me something different and make me feel at home.
i need to visit my dads grave, i havent been in such a long time. i want someone to go with.

i wish everyone i know was innocent.
i have this weird world in my head where every relationship is completely honest and pure.
i wish a lot of things.

tree disease is quite disgusting.
living in a small town and having lazy days sounds more and more like what i want to do.
it might be amazing.

this has got to be the cutest and neatest thing anyone has ever given me.
for reals.

this needs to happen sooooooooon.

i feel excited.
about some things.
for once.

smokey b. brown
thats what he said his name is.

chainsaw is pretty amazing.
cameron is cool too.

we are on the same page most of the time.

i think im going to start smoking cigs cause its so cooooooooooooooooooool.
but ill call them fags.



tell me hes not the cutest little drunk boy youve ever seen.